FYI

Am I crazy for wanting to "talk" with someone at 12:37am because I feel so alive with conversation and thought? I am craving conversation. Laughter. Interaction. Even if only for 5, 10, 15 minutes. I can't shut my brain off. I want to "goof off" with someone right now. I want to be silly and serious at the same time - this very second.

Instead, my only company is the pain eating away at my insides. The best way to describe it is an extreme hunger pain mixed with a lump in my throat, tight chest and burning eyes fighting back tears.

I hear the clock tick, tick, ticking away.

I would love to hear another human's laughter.

-Des